I know, I’m still in shock myself.
But it’s really happening. I’m <almost 14 weeks> pregnant with baby #2, due September 7th.
It has taken me about a week to write this. I am excited, really, but my life is so crazy, the last thing we “planned” to do was bring another child into this family. Yes, we always wanted a second, but thought we’d try once everything settled at home and Mason was a little bit older. I honestly didn’t think there was room on my plate, but apparently the universe had a different plan. Full life circle literally happening under one roof. Pretty unbelievable when I think about it.
Truthfully, I’m scared.
I’m scared that we’ll lose my mom (or possibly this baby) over the next 6 months. I’m sad that she won’t be in the hospital room with my husband when this child is born like she was with Mason. I’m both scared and sad that I’m about to be a mother of two children <under the age of 2> and won’t have my mom there to comfort me or give me advice. Just to clarify, I’m not assuming my mom won’t be with us, but mentally (due to the tumor), she’s not able to communicate, except for a handful of (basic) words or even have the strength or ability to get out of her hospital bed. You can find more info/updates, here.
Deep down though, I’m really happy and incredibly grateful for this baby.
I’ve always believed, and still do that there are no accidents. We tried for what feels like forever to get pregnant with Mason. We said he was our miracle baby. Now, finding out we’re expecting number two in the middle of grieving, you could also consider that a miracle. I believe there’s a bigger reason for this baby. It’ll be a gift and he or she will likely be a piece of my mother.
Now for the pregnancy details.
This feels like a completely different pregnancy than my first. I feel great. There have been a few mornings that I’ve struggled, but once I get a piece of toast down, I’m good. I still have a good appetite. I can still eat salads and vegetables, but CRAVE any and every kind of fruit. I’m pretty sure I ate an entire cantaloupe the other day and if I had another, I’d eat it right now. What’s also different is I’m SUPER emotional. I drove by a car accident and started crying my eyes out. My sister will walk in the room after a commercial and I’ll have tears running down my face. It’s kind of obnoxious, but we’re all getting use to my continuous tears. Then as expected, I’m tired and suffer from baby brain, but can’t complain. My co-workers might though… sorry guys, just 6 more months.
I’m happy to be pregnant. Growing a little human being and the bond between mother and child that forms is something I really can’t put words to. Even during my difficult pregnancy with Mason, I fell in love with his every kick, hiccup and wiggle that happened. I’m anxious to do the same with this little bean.
Thank you for joining me in this crazy adventure that we call life. I’m thankful for all of you!
Now, any recommendations for double strollers, thoughts on two kids sharing a room (when we move out), and any good maternity work clothes? Ready, go!
My sweet family. Likely the last professional family photo before we’re a family of four.
All of these photos were taken by the talented Catherine Abegg // Calima Portraits. She’s A M A Z I N G.
March 7 2014